pit in my stomach

I have too many feelings right now to really say anything eloquent but I need to speak. This may make people mad, and I want to make it clear that I am so thankful that Osama bin Ladin can never mastermind another plot like 9/11 again. However, I can't bring myself to celebrate a murder- no matter how evil the person. He was a human being amazingly full of hate, and I can understand how people are reacting to the relief of knowing that this symbol of the needless slaughter of so many people is gone, but if we cheer in the streets are we really that much better than the people who burned our flag and danced?

Maybe I just feel this way because my initial reaction was terror. This is going to enrage so many people who already hate our entire country- Al Qaeda is an entire group of people who collaborated to attack us unprovoked and cause THOUSANDS of people to die. How could we imagine they're going to sit back and let this happen? Especially when they see us cheering and celebrating something that must fill them with sorrow and anger? I'm so scared this is going to start a full war or another attack like the World Trade Center, I can't sleep easy tonight.

still here

I didn't celebrate a gosh- darned thing in April because all of a sudden all my teachers decided they hated us and assigned 800 things each. Due immediately. Also work was crazy, the DMV has a personal vendetta against me and I think my Lyme's disease is coming back. So life kicked my ass this April, and I've developed a pretty constant eye twitch that is either due to stress, lack of sleep or the Lyme's. Or I have a tumor on my spine as WebMD so lovingly suggested. (I have an APP on my PHONE which has taken my inner hypochondriac to a WHOLE NEW LEVEL.)

But this weekend was wonderful- I scored some great finds at a book sale, sat by a river and ate sausages with my friends, did copious amounts of homework, watched this disgusting hematoma blossom during the UFC fight, and ate my body weight in frozen yogurt.

The weather is getting so nice out I feel like I'm a real human again. So in an attempt to keep up my relaxing weekend I'm going to try and take a picture a day. Even if it's something totally boring.  Just one.

Want to join me? I predict that 1. there will be at least ONE Yogoberry photo in there and 2. 90% of them will be edited with Instagram.

I just hope I passed...

Let's say you're taking a class. It's just a really hard subject, the studying is time intensive and sometimes you just plain don't get what the teacher is trying to explain. However you only have to power through 4 tests in the semester. Test 1 is a take-home (which equals an A because you have a week to look up all the answers), Test 2 is open book (less time but STILL you have the answers right in front of you) and the last two tests are regular good old, sweat-it-out, you'd-better-study ones. So you listen during the lectures, review your notes, eat your Wheaties the morning of, then sit down and hope for the best.

Now imagine that in your pretty difficult class there is a girl, who to put it nicely, is really annoying. She either loudly interrupts with irrelevant comments, talks to her friends or texts throughout the entire class. And as you're sitting there reading your test where the words look like an ancient lost language because you have NO IDEA what the answers are, you glance over to see this annoying girl click clacking on her cell phone looking up the answers. THE ENTIRE TEST. Firstly you think, who the hell cheats in college and secondly you think WTF.

Now, what would you do?

Because for ME- you send an e-mail to your teacher after class because YES that's snitching and NO you don't care. When you bust ass to learn and EARN a good grade it's not okay for someone to waltz in with an iced coffee and devalue the effort you and your classmates have put in. And also, Google isn't going to have its name on that degree girlfriend, so don't make ME look bad for graduating from the same school as you.

Would you have handled it differently? Think I'm a dirty rat?

sleep deprived

I just wanted to let you all know that aliens creep me out, TV Guide said Law and Order was new tonight and IT WASN'T and I hate writing essays with the burning passion of everything in my soul.

And that's kind of all that's going in my life right now. Also my little brother snuck into my bed last night, kicked me off my pillow island like a pirate in footie pajamas and then slept upside down and roundhouse kicked me in my chest at 4 am.

Bonus quick question: Am I the only one who automatically assumes you must be rich if I see you writing in your textbook?

sleeping in

taken with my Instagram app

when the sun came up,
we we're sleeping in,
sunk inside our blankets,
sprawled across the bed,
and we we're dreaming.

I was doing homework last night and one of the articles I had to read said: "Ask yourself what you would do if you were in love with the most wonderful person in the world- you- and then do it."

So I skipped my morning class, slept in, and then made myself waffles with peanut butter and honey for breakfast in bed.

AND IT WAS GREAT.



What are you going to do for yourself today?

Butter pretzel bribery

I had a presentation for my art therapy class this week. I had to find an article and talk about it to the class, who would be grading me. I have a prison fetish so I chose one about the benefits of art therapy in prisons and off I went. I researched and planned and got ready. Then I remembered that I HATE talking in front of large groups of people. (I can handle it in most situations, just not when I don't really know what I'm talking about, I don't have any friends or family to look at and feel better, or when I can actually see the people staring back at me. This was a perfect storm of all those situations.) Oh and also, I was going first out of the entire class. YIKES. So I planned ahead and I baked cookies and brownies to hopefully distract everyone from the hot mess I was about to become. I made THESE cookies:

Can you believe I took this by myself? With my iPhone?

Butter pretzel chocolate chip cookies.

I used a recipe from Lovin' From the Oven and can now declare that these are my new favorite cookies. I used Butter Snap pretzels which you should go out to the store and buy RIGHTNOW because they're disgustingly good. (YES I realize it's a fake butter flavoring, but whatever chemicals are in are delicious ones.) Next time I bake these (there WILL be a next time), I'll add more pretzels because mine didn't have enough crunch in them. Overall though, A+. I also made black bean brownies because one of the girls in my class is gluten free, but those all got eaten before I could remember to take a picture.

Oh and in case you were wondering, I definitely sounded like an idiot during my presentation because I was talking too fast, forgot my main overall point and my hands were clearly shaking. It was all so embarrassing that I wanted to cry, but at least they ate almost all of my cookies and brownies. So I'll let you know if that tipped the scales on my grade any when I get it back next week.

Have you ever made cookies with any other fun add-ins besides chocolate chips? Help feed my addiction!

Aw shucks

Happy Birthday Donald Duck!